No Insurance

Today I learned that although my medical insurance plan has provision for fertility coverage, I am not eligible because my hubby had a “sterilization procedure” (vasectomy) 8 years ago, long before he met me.  The fact that he had a vasectomy reversal, which we funded completely ourselves (by the way), apparently makes no difference.  We are being penalized because he was responsible.  So we have to cover 100% of the IVF costs.  On Tuesday we find out how much that we will be.  I have no idea whether we will be able to do this.

In other news, I finally dragged myself to my doctor for a check up today.  She is a wonderful woman, been in practice for 20 odd years and practices complementary and alternative medicine, in addition to tradition western medicine.  Over the 6 years I’ve been in the US, I’ve gained a huge amount of weight, steadily upward.  My motivation to do anything about it is non-existent and when I do try gentle exercise I am so heavy, my feet and back ache to the point of putting me out of commission for a while.

I need to know how bad it is…how bad the vitals are…how this will affect me having a baby…because, of course it will.  She sent me for a battery of tests, prescribed reading Ultrametabolism, listening to meditative CD’s, scheduling in exercise time and 30 minutes of walking, 3 days a week.  Even I should be able to manage that, right?  Right?  RIGHT?!

I felt good about seeing the doctor, a little motivated again.  Until I got the news of the medical insurance.

Did I mention how dog-tired I am of all the issues in my life and how life just seems to be a continual uphill struggle?  I just don’t know if I have the energy to fight this fertility battle.