Crawling Out of the Pit

If you saw my post yesterday, you would know that it was dark and despondent, full of “woe me”.  Today I see a blog post from the Reverend of my church and it spoke to me, loud and clear.

In it, she speaks of “disgust at what I’ve become”.  Oh yes…”disgust” is exactly what I’ve been feeling about myself…in the midst of my anguish and worry this weekend, there was this underlying, niggling feeling of disgust at my negativity.  You see, I *know* on a deep level that the truth is “love and abundance for all” and this negativity is just a temporary illusion.  I just felt a million miles away from the truth.  So I was grateful for the reminder of her this morning, and of the truths she reminds me of.

She has this line she always says in service “may we be gentle in our brokenness“.  The first time I heard that, tears came to my eyes, the message is so beautiful.  I need to remember that…just be gentle with myself…no self-flagellation required.

The rest of her post is this:

“…you know, there is a way out.  Through the heart in gratitude.  Through the mind, in humility.  Through the senses, in releasing the “drama of me” into the presence of wholeness.

When feeling that you are no good, just trust that you are wrong, and find a way to be kind or acknowledge beauty.  You may not feel immediately better, but you’ll have begun to break the spell.”

Thank you Rev. Lisa, for the reminder of the truth and for pointing the way out of the pit.  Your post broke the spell.  Now, onward to feeling better.


Warning – Graphical Content

Welcome to my blog…really glad to have you here!  Here I chronicle my journey to have a child.  I am writing it to remind myself of the details of the journey, to solicit support and to hopefully provide support to others on a similar journey.  Some of the content may be graphic and probably too much information, so be warned and read at your own risk 🙂

Filler…Onward and Upward

This is a filler post….much to catch up on.  But instead of procrastinating and procrastinating because of the huge amount of information I have to catch you up on, I’m just going to jump right in and hope I can fill in the blanks as I go.  Standby for my next posts chronicling my journey “To the Womb and Back”…!


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This is where I chronicle the adventures about my journey to have a baby.

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